Gratitude on the go! 7-20-13

Today I am grateful for:
-Sleeping soundly
-not letting my thoughts overwhelm me. I had the whole day all to myself. The whole day. It's extremely rare that ever happens. I actually tried to make plans for the day but to no avail. Perhaps that was for the best. I worked on some lines and watched tv and stuff. Otherwise I just relaxed. The whole day. Relaxing is surprisingly difficult, haha. I did my best. There were a few times where I could feel myself getting anxious/my thoughts getting the best of me. However I was able to keep myself in check and not panic. They're just thoughts. It might not seem like much, but it was a big deal at the time.
-seeing rays of sun peeking through the clouds.
-a great crowd for the show.
-a fun improv set. Goofy. Patient.
-Sommerfest at Dave's. We got there pretty late so there wasn't a ton of people (thank goodness) but the people that were there were fun and I was able to chat with a bunch of them and not feel too awkward.
-laughter
-boundaries. At the party someone definitely crossed some boundaries with me and even though I asked them to stop nicely a few times, they didn't. I then had to really firmly say stop. I did get super anxious but was able to quickly breathe through it. I felt bad though because I knew I was anxious and acting weird. People talked about it and pointed it out. Whatever. I made a boundary and it wasn't respected so I had to put my foot down. I'm very grateful I started boundary work with my therapist this week.
-My godson Keanu. It's his birthday today. He's 9. That's crazy. The last time I saw him he was 5. Wow. I can't believe it. I love him so much and I hope he has had an amazing day*

Look at him! Ah he's so amazing. 

-The basics
-melatonin
-as always, my friends

I've been thinking about my family a lot recently. I miss them so much. It's so conflicting. I want to see them and spend time with them so badly. I can't though. I'm here, they're there. I can't afford it, I don't have the time, etc etc etc. Eventually I have to figure that out. I don't want to not be in my families life.