-this quote:
"You will either step forward into growth or you will step back into safety."
-sleeping a full night of sleep. Like...a normal person? I hate to say normal person because what does that even mean? But I mean that I slept from like 11:30pm until 8am? Like...what? Who does that? It was awesome. The recharge I needed.
-Chan camps.
-Getting to leave a bit early and beat most of the traffic
-Group. Group was pretty great. Hard. Good hard though. That's such a contradiction but that's okay. It was just two of us again. The two quiet ones this time. In a way it was good that it was just us. At first a bit intimidating, but by the end I think we got a lot out of it. I know I did. Some of the time we just sat in the space. Taking up space. So hard for both of us. I found myself being profoundly sad and also mad at some points. Not at group but about the things that happened to the other group member. She did not deserve any of it. Nobody does. I wanted to get up and walk around I was so upset. I also admire her courage and strength for fighting so hard and being able to actually share and really feel what she was going through. I know that I can talk about what happened to me in group, but its hard for me to really sit in it and feel it. I editorialize it. It's too painful. So I really admire her for that going there. For really leaning in. Some other things that really stood out to me in group: We both have trouble sleeping, we both really struggle to take space, and we both will do whatever it takes to help others. Also something one of the counselor said really stood out to me. Its okay to be a burden some times. I've never thought about that before. Sometimes...its okay. Huh. I really had/have to ponder that. Anyway, it was a good group.
-feeling more like myself.
-getting work done
-melatonin
-the basics
-as always, my friends
-sleeping a full night of sleep. Like...a normal person? I hate to say normal person because what does that even mean? But I mean that I slept from like 11:30pm until 8am? Like...what? Who does that? It was awesome. The recharge I needed.
-Chan camps.
-Getting to leave a bit early and beat most of the traffic
-Group. Group was pretty great. Hard. Good hard though. That's such a contradiction but that's okay. It was just two of us again. The two quiet ones this time. In a way it was good that it was just us. At first a bit intimidating, but by the end I think we got a lot out of it. I know I did. Some of the time we just sat in the space. Taking up space. So hard for both of us. I found myself being profoundly sad and also mad at some points. Not at group but about the things that happened to the other group member. She did not deserve any of it. Nobody does. I wanted to get up and walk around I was so upset. I also admire her courage and strength for fighting so hard and being able to actually share and really feel what she was going through. I know that I can talk about what happened to me in group, but its hard for me to really sit in it and feel it. I editorialize it. It's too painful. So I really admire her for that going there. For really leaning in. Some other things that really stood out to me in group: We both have trouble sleeping, we both really struggle to take space, and we both will do whatever it takes to help others. Also something one of the counselor said really stood out to me. Its okay to be a burden some times. I've never thought about that before. Sometimes...its okay. Huh. I really had/have to ponder that. Anyway, it was a good group.
-feeling more like myself.
-getting work done
-melatonin
-the basics
-as always, my friends
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