Today I am grateful for:
-This quote:
"The days you are most uncomfortable are the days you learn the most about yourself."
-laughter
-Andy letting me take advantage of that sweet free parking space behind the building.
-late night drive with padre
-being present. I'm present to the fact that today was kind of rough. I'm pretty sure it's just PMS because everything seems amplified. Also I'm stressed and in tech. A lot of combinations of things going on right now that are affecting my mood. I'm struggling being alone right now. I'm just reminding myself that these feelings will pass. I know they will. I'm just in the thralls of it. Thinking about the things I'm grateful for today is posing to be difficult because of where I'm at right now. I'm trying so hard to live in the moment. Living moment to moment is wonderful because if one moment sucks, its over. Next moment! And that next moment could be incredible. So I'm trying really hard to just think about the here and now. The here and now is wonderful. Where my mind is wondering though is the future. I'm scared I'm going to be alone. Forever. I'm scared I'm never going to be open enough to let someone get close to me or that I am able to open up and no one wants me anyway. Either way doesn't sound so good. UGH. Anyway, that's where my brain is now. Trying to remember to breath and just be in the moment. Just be in the moment.
-the basics
-my bed
-as always, my friends
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