Today I am grateful for:
-this quotes:
"Character is not a gift. It is a conquest and its kingdom lives upstream. You never get there by drifting."
-watching American Horror Story with Amanda aka my new roommate. :)
-my therapist. We talked about guys and she pointed out how I've come a pretty long way since starting this process because I'm able to talk about guys fairly easy at this point in time without thinking I'm going to implode and actually feeling like dating is now an actual option. The metaphor she used was that I'm actually thinking about going to the store, but it's just not quite open yet or I don't have enough money. Whereas before the store wasn't built yet. It was powerful to have that realization brought to my attention. She was also very patient today as I realized I didn't have much to say.
-being present. I'm present to the fact that I might not be needing as much therapy. I don't think I can stop cold turkey, but as of late I feel like I've really been able to handle things on my own. My therapist has given me so many tools that I've been able to apply to my every day life as well as in specific situations. I know it's something I need to talk to her about but I'm afraid. Last time I wanted to start decreasing my sessions I had a really serious bout of depression and needed to continue with going once a week and also adding a couple more times. What if its psychosomatic? Anyway, that's what I'm present to at the moment and I just need to spit it out and talk it out with her.
-an out of the blue text from Emily saying: "It's been one week since I saw you completely OWN the bnw stage. You're fucking awesome. Have a great day!" That really brought a huge smile to my face.
-a good rehearsal
-soups to go!
-a really fantastic audience. A pipe burst at the theater and it seemed like they were gonna have to cancel the show because they couldn't get any running water. However, the show did go on. It was rough because we were all pretty excited that we might have an extra night off. I think that's what made the audience so much better because if they were a crappy audience we would have had a really shitty time performing. Not the case!
-a fun improv set.
-laughter
-the basics
-journaling
-as always, my friends.
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