-these quotes:
"Nobody will believe in you unless you believe in yourself."
"In the moment that we choose to abide with the energy instead of acting it out or repressing it, we are training in equanimity."
-my therapist being flexible and super quick to respond that she could reschedule our appointment to Thursday.
-remembering to breathe. I had a bit of a panic attack around 5am. It was the first time I was separated from Amanda since the whole thing started and I think that was also the first time I was able to take in the severity of the situation. I was def feeling all the feels. I didn't want to admit to being scared, but I think that was a big one.
-not getting in a car crash this morning. I should not have been driving. Amanda finally convinced me to leave around 8am. It was actually a good call. As much as I hated to go, I also remembered that it's really hard to take care of others when I'm not taking care of myself. So I left. However, I was extremely exhausted. I barely remember the drive home. That...is not a good sign. Thankfully I made it back safe and sound and was able to take about an hour or so nap.
-being reminded that rehearsal was being cut short today. Only 1 to 3, which kind of really made my day. We just read people's sketches, which were all really funny.
-Amanda doing so much better. Her blood sugar is back in the normal range, she was up and talking, sitting in a chair, and even ate a couple meals. Boom.
-laughter
-chatting with Brian tonight. It's been so long but we're gonna try to chat more regularly and work on some writing and getting our creative juices flowing. I genuinely laughed out loud several times as I usually do when I'm chatting with him.
-the basics
-people checking in with me.
-my bed
-as always, my friends
-my therapist being flexible and super quick to respond that she could reschedule our appointment to Thursday.
-remembering to breathe. I had a bit of a panic attack around 5am. It was the first time I was separated from Amanda since the whole thing started and I think that was also the first time I was able to take in the severity of the situation. I was def feeling all the feels. I didn't want to admit to being scared, but I think that was a big one.
-not getting in a car crash this morning. I should not have been driving. Amanda finally convinced me to leave around 8am. It was actually a good call. As much as I hated to go, I also remembered that it's really hard to take care of others when I'm not taking care of myself. So I left. However, I was extremely exhausted. I barely remember the drive home. That...is not a good sign. Thankfully I made it back safe and sound and was able to take about an hour or so nap.
-being reminded that rehearsal was being cut short today. Only 1 to 3, which kind of really made my day. We just read people's sketches, which were all really funny.
-Amanda doing so much better. Her blood sugar is back in the normal range, she was up and talking, sitting in a chair, and even ate a couple meals. Boom.
-laughter
-chatting with Brian tonight. It's been so long but we're gonna try to chat more regularly and work on some writing and getting our creative juices flowing. I genuinely laughed out loud several times as I usually do when I'm chatting with him.
-the basics
-people checking in with me.
-my bed
-as always, my friends
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