Today I am grateful for:
-sleeping really soundly
-Lauren making me belly laugh. "It smells like bacon out here. Or is it peppermint..."
-being present. I was feeling run down earlier. I got pretty nervous and really did some evaluating of what was going on. I'm pretty sure what I was feeling was shame. We had a writing day today and everyone was able to write something pretty great while I felt pretty lack luster. I'm still very insecure about my writing and I think it pulled me into a small shame storm. I felt myself checking out. My arms were crossed in front of me, I got warm, my breathing was labored, my chest and throat were tight. I had to give myself a lot of self kindness. I still do. I've written good stuff before, I just need to get back into the swing of it. I also have honestly not had a lot of experience writing before this job while others have been doing this for years and years. I'm working on it still. I'm figuring it out. I gotta just own what I got and work on it from there. I also think I was not able to get some recharge time so that also put a damper on how I was feeling.
-coming home and catching up with Amanda. It was nice to decompress and just shoot the shit. We also watched a lifetime movie. It was pretty great.
-laughter
-the basics
-as always, my friends
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