Gratitude on the go! 9-11-12

Today I am grateful for:
-so much today
-for all the people who gave there lives on 9/11. It was such a tragic day in history. You all are remembered.
-more random art projects. Here are some pics:

     

A clothes line for my earrings that I framed.

These wall quotes can also be hilarious. This is for Amanda.

-quotes that inspire people
-laughter
-my friends
-playing on a playground
-Sarah Gioia giving me an awesome new pair of used shoes. They are so comfortable!
-Amy Poehler. She is such an inspiration. I've always been a fan, but I think I've just become an even bigger fan somehow after watching this video:
-being able to sit outside at night in just a tshirt and jeans.
-feeling peaceful
-therapy.
-therapy homework: Do something every day that scares you.

Side note about therapy today: I'm always grateful for therapy. Today in particular though. We talked about some kind of mind blowing stuff. It didn't really seem that mind blowing at the time, but the more I think about it, it really was. I went into therapy thinking I lost track of who I was and was trying to "find myself." Among other things. Turns out I've always been right here. I just wasn't looking. I kept thinking that I would find me if only I was _______. If only I was thinner, if only I dressed a certain way, if only if only if only. There's a great quote that really sums up how I'm trying to see myself now:

"In a world where "never enough" dominates and feeling afraid has become second nature, vulnerability is subversive. Uncomfortable. It's even a little dangerous at times. And, without question, putting ourselves out there means there's a far greater risk of getting criticized or feeling hurt. But when we step back and examine our lives, we will find that nothing is as uncomfortable, dangerous and hurtful as believing that we're standing on the outside of our lives looking in and wondering what it would be like if we had the courage to show up and let ourselves be seen." -Brene Brown

I'm finally ready to let myself be seen. To let myself be vulnerable. To put myself out there. I look the way I look and I dress the way I dress. I am, right now, exactly how I'm suppose to be.

Also, this blog has been so wonderful. I have so much in my life to be grateful for. So much. Focusing on gratitude makes it easier to work through the hard stuff. Whether the hard stuff is dealing with work, relationships, lack of self confidence, etc, I can look at the things that I am grateful for and the rest is easier to swallow.