Today I am grateful for:
-my therapist. It was so incredibly helpful to actually talk about what has been going on. She listened like a champ and supported me and reassured me. She said something really great. She said that we can talk about what exactly is running through my head, but we know that it's not true so maybe we shouldn't give those thoughts any more time. So smart. She's right. As always. She also brought up the point that this is not the worst that it's been. I've had much worse episodes before. Not to minimize how I'm feeling, she's just pointing out that the work that I've been putting in is paying off. Thank goodness. It was a good perspective to have. I'm also allowing myself to just lean in and feel it because I can't change the fact that it's happening to me. It's gonna happen no matter what, but what I can do is not believe that this is how it'll be forever. That these awful thoughts that make me feel selfish and worthless are the truth. Because they're not true. The storm will pass and I'll be back to myself again soon. One minute at a time.
-having lunch with Jen. It was just her and myself today. No Oscar. It was kind a nice change. I love me some Oscar, but it was really great to really chat with Jen about what's been going on in her life. She's good people that Jen. Super good people.
-taking the afternoon/evening off for myself. A mental health day if you will. I put on my pjs, made myself some tea, and watched stupid tv. I also took a quick nap in there too. I feel so much more rested.
-The Ellen Show. Continually making me laugh.
-laugher
-the basics
-as always, my friends
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