Gratitude on the go! 12-5-12

Today I am grateful for:
-Sleeping in
-Getting to see Jen and Megan. Jen made us lunch at her new apartment and it was awesome! Her apartment and lunch! I love those ladies. They really do bring such joy to my life.
-Having some time to make a graphic for the Minneapples. Pretty sure this is the final cut:

I'm still not a huge fan of the font, but I love the pic itself

-Having a great crowd at the workshop

-Having a fun set. Lots of group scenes and high energy.
-This quote:
"No one looks stupid when they're having fun."-Amy Poehler 
-Having another good interaction with my mom. She came to the show again and brought almost the entire audience. It was nice though. Very pleasant. 

-Getting tweeted at! That lady I met yesterday at BLB tweeted at me:

Pretty sweet tweet. 

-Being present. Today I am present to the fact that it's still really hard for me to talk about boys. I was chatting with a friend online and about her new guy in her life. That part was great. She's really happy and he seems nice and that's all that matters to me. However somehow we got switched over to talking about how my dating life's going and that's when I started having trouble. We talked about online dating and how my experience has been different than all my other friends. I was being honest and saying how yes, I'm aware that dating is hard in general for everyone, but it's also really hard that I rarely get messages and dates while all my friends get a swarm of messages weekly if not daily. I expressed how I felt frustrated with that knowledge and I don't understand if it is the universe's way of protecting me or saying I suck. I found myself crying while I typed. Because in my mind I kept thinking to myself that I'm not getting messages because I am unworthy of love and belonging. I was very present to try to actively talk myself down from that. I wish I would have been able to ask for help or advice in some way but I didn't know how to or what exactly to say. Well I guess I wanted to say, "So, do You think I suck?" Or, "Could you look at my profile and tell me what you think?" Or, "Can you tell me honestly if you think I'm going to be okay?" Hopefully one day in the future I'll be able to achieve asking for help in this area. Or in general. Baby steps. In the meantime, I'm just grateful to have had this conversation. And I do believe that talking about boys at all with someone was helpful for me because it brought to light that it's still a difficult subject to breech.
-The basics
-Breathing
-Hanging out with Amanda and watching Walking Dead and American Horror Story. So good!
-Laughter
-Laughter

-As always, my friends.