Today I am grateful for:
-public transportation
-podcasts
-my vo not going as long as I thought. I was able to have a proper lunch break.
-Litza texting me to let me know she got her bday present in the mail. I was getting worried it never arrived.
-rehearsal
-a ride home from rehearsal
-group. I am so grateful for those ladies.
-being present. I'm present to the fact I am feeling ashamed of something tonight. Group just finished and I was outside in the parking lot with some of the ladies. I was meeting a friend, who happens to live right next door to where the group meets. I told the ladies that my friend was coming down and she didn't know about this part of my life. When my friend came down I darted out of the parking lot as quickly as I could. They seemed fine with it but I just felt so much shame. I shouldn't have done that. I should have just owned up and said what was going on. Not everything, but yes I was meeting those ladies in a therapy group. I hate that fear kicked in. I hate it. Sigh. Now I'm present that I'm being mean to myself. It's okay. You weren't ready to tell your friend who can be a big gossip about your personal business. Haha now I'm present that I'm talking to myself in the second person. Is it the second person? Now I'm present that I'm going to have to look that up.
-Anna, Steph, and I going to see not one, but Two movies tonight. Monster's University, which was soooo good! I love you Pixar!! And then World War Z. Yes I saw it again. That's totally fine. It was free (because we snuck in. Shh!) so I'm okay with it. It was also nice to just see them. It's been awhile.
-the medicine for my hand. It seems to be healing rather quickly. :)
-getting a text from Zarah checking in with me. I really appreciate that.
-people checkin in with me in general.
-The basics
-laughter
-as always, my friends.
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