Today I am grateful for:
-these quotes:
"life is an adventure in forgiving"
"today is absolutely today. Today is not yesterday. Today is not tomorrow"
-Getting a 90 minute massage. I found myself having a hard time staying present, but overall it was really really nice.
-dinner with padre
-gchatting with Jaime
-watching American Horror Story with Amanda.
-the basics
-laughter
-leaning into discomfort. I think I'm becoming aware to the fact that sometimes I'm not actually as present as I claim to be. I think part of me thinks, "oh okay. I'm now learning about being present, therefore, I am present and everything is awesome and good and fixed!" Not the case. Yes, I am becoming critically aware, but part of that is the awareness that I'm not still not working on certain things. I'm still afraid. FEAR- Fuck Everything And Run! I don't want to do that, but I am still. That is me leaning into discomfort. Admitting that I'm still not present on the hard stuff. I am grateful to admit that to myself though.
-as always, my friends.
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