Gratitude on the go! 3-15-14

Today I am grateful for:
-brunch with Kdog.
-two sold out shows.
-how my mind clears out when I'm on stage
-a fun improv set
-OMG. All the ladies did really well.
-laughter
-the daily prompt*
-the basics
-as always, my friends

*Day 15: A Sign

The summer before I left for college I remember having all the feelings. I was terrified of leaving, I was excited for leaving, and I was in love for the first time. A lot of conflicting feelings all around. I remember going up north with my dad for a long weekend and having a lot of time on my hands to kill. This is when I would spend most of my time thinking about my upcoming uncertain future and would freak myself out with all the incredibly outrageous worst case scenarios that could happen to me when I went to college.

I never shared how I was feeling with anyone because I was convinced no one would be able to say anything that would help anyway. Not to mention I didn't want to seem weak. I know now that is silly, but at the time it only added to my freaking out.

Anyway, one day up north though my dad and I were taking a walk. I remember having a really intense internal freak out. I kind of was at my wits end when I remembered I had rented a movie from blockbuster (#dated)  a few weeks prior. I don't remember what the movie was called, but in it there was this part that talked about asking for a sign from the universe. Now, I'm not a religious person and at the time I wasn't all that spiritual either. When I watched that scene in that movie I was intrigued, but didn't really buy into it. However, in that moment in time on that walk, I thought to myself that asking for a sign was the only thing I could possibly do to calm myself down.

So quietly under my breath, I whispered, "Alright universe. If I'm going to be alright at college please show me a sign. Show me a sign of something round with the color of either blue or red. If I see something round that's either blue or red I'll know I'll be okay. Um...Thank you."

And you know what happened? Nothing. We were out on a walk for about another hour and I saw no signs of something round that was red or blue. I obviously took that as a sign that all the terrible things I thought were gonna happen would indeed happen. My internal freak out continued.

Hours later my dad and I decided to go play mini golf. It's kind of our thing. I wasn't freaking out as much as I was anymore but was still bummed that the universe didn't help me out. We were at the counter getting our putters and golf balls and guess what colors our round golf balls were? One was red, and one was blue. This may seem a little far fetched and probably just a random coincidence, but at that moment in time I remember feeling a tremendous weight lift off my chest. That was the sign I had asked for. Everything was gonna be okay.

And guess what? It totally was.