-this quote:
"Rules are what the artist breaks; the memorable never emerged from a formula."
-The retro 3 at 3. They played an old shaggy song. It was pretty epic and brought a groove to my body and a smile to my face. :)
-being present. I'm present today about the fact that I'm wanting to processing some big picture stuff. While reading the bloggess I might have stumbled down a rabbit hole about ACON. While some of it doesn't feel like it pertains to me, some of it was insanely spot on. It really made me reflect on my past. I had a few moments where I started to get worked up, but for the most part I think I was able to just acknowledge those feelings and breath through them. I might be pushing them down a bit, too. I think it's a combo. I would rather process these thoughts with group or Marit (most likely both) so I don't want to get myself up in a tizzy before I do that. The thoughts are there, they're just thoughts, and for now I'm putting them on the shelf. Huh. I don't think that's pushing them down actually. If was pushing those feelings down, I would not be dealing with them and hoping they'd go away. That's not what's happening here. Wait a second...Putting something on the shelf is something I've worked on in therapy. Okay, now I'm present that I'm skeptical. I'm skeptical that this is a good thing. But I honestly think it is. I'm not freaking out or feeling overwhelmed. I feel in control of my thoughts. Wow. This is different. Good different? Yeah. Lets go with that.
-stream of conscious writing
-laughter. Particularly this video:
-taking the time to get into my body. I just did a check in with myself before the show tonight. It wasn't for very long, but just a quick scan and getting grounded.
-the really nice audience members who came up and gave the sweetest and gentlest hug in the receiving line.
-free cake. Red velvet cake!
-getting surprise checks in the mail! The best!
-the basics
-melatonin
-as always, my friends
-being present. I'm present today about the fact that I'm wanting to processing some big picture stuff. While reading the bloggess I might have stumbled down a rabbit hole about ACON. While some of it doesn't feel like it pertains to me, some of it was insanely spot on. It really made me reflect on my past. I had a few moments where I started to get worked up, but for the most part I think I was able to just acknowledge those feelings and breath through them. I might be pushing them down a bit, too. I think it's a combo. I would rather process these thoughts with group or Marit (most likely both) so I don't want to get myself up in a tizzy before I do that. The thoughts are there, they're just thoughts, and for now I'm putting them on the shelf. Huh. I don't think that's pushing them down actually. If was pushing those feelings down, I would not be dealing with them and hoping they'd go away. That's not what's happening here. Wait a second...Putting something on the shelf is something I've worked on in therapy. Okay, now I'm present that I'm skeptical. I'm skeptical that this is a good thing. But I honestly think it is. I'm not freaking out or feeling overwhelmed. I feel in control of my thoughts. Wow. This is different. Good different? Yeah. Lets go with that.
-stream of conscious writing
-laughter. Particularly this video:
-taking the time to get into my body. I just did a check in with myself before the show tonight. It wasn't for very long, but just a quick scan and getting grounded.
-the really nice audience members who came up and gave the sweetest and gentlest hug in the receiving line.
-free cake. Red velvet cake!
-getting surprise checks in the mail! The best!
-the basics
-melatonin
-as always, my friends
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