-a song from Grease coming on the oldies station. You Are The One That I Want. It brought an instant smile to my face. :)
-my therapist. We did some body work again, which was great. I was able to focus in on areas in my body that don't hold stress (or as much stress) and focus on that. She sat with me while I found words to put to how I was feeling about my mom. She said today was the clearest I've ever been in regards to that. I really just need acceptance. That I am who I am and that 50% of me is my dad. All the years that my mom bad talked my dad had a greater effect on me than she knows. She hating my dad = she hated me. Considering that I look like him, I have similar interests as him, I got along with him, etc. Anyway, I'm grateful my therapist just let me kind of work it out. We used some visual aids too, which were very helpful. I was exhausted by the end of it all.
-Amy booking her flight to MPLS. It's really happening!
-http://bigassmessage.com/
-having a very relaxing day at home.
-Daring Greatly. I was chatting with friend on gchat, and some how we started talking about a guy. She asked if I thought he was cute and well...I didn't say yes, but I also didn't say no. She said she was going to look into it. I would usually stop everything about this from happening. However this time I just kind of played it off. If anything comes about it, great. If nothing comes about it, that's okay too. Trying something new. TRE.
-having the apartment to myself.
-Steph giving away her books that she doesn't want anymore. She had about 8 paper bags filled to the top with books. At the end of it all I took one whole bag of books. Although some of them were mine to begin with.
-Ruth calling me to tell me her friend is moving and is getting rid of her basically new bed for cheap. She got it in February. I'm definitely going to call her and look into it.
-Meeting up with Kasono. Its always so much fun to see him. Such a kind soul.
-Seeing Emily's show. It was really good. Her writing style is great and the actors fit their characters like a glove. Fun to watch!
-being invited out for a drink after the show. Again, handling the social outing pretty well. Catching up with people I don't really see all that often.
-laughter.
-the basics
-melatonin
-as always, my friends
-my therapist. We did some body work again, which was great. I was able to focus in on areas in my body that don't hold stress (or as much stress) and focus on that. She sat with me while I found words to put to how I was feeling about my mom. She said today was the clearest I've ever been in regards to that. I really just need acceptance. That I am who I am and that 50% of me is my dad. All the years that my mom bad talked my dad had a greater effect on me than she knows. She hating my dad = she hated me. Considering that I look like him, I have similar interests as him, I got along with him, etc. Anyway, I'm grateful my therapist just let me kind of work it out. We used some visual aids too, which were very helpful. I was exhausted by the end of it all.
-Amy booking her flight to MPLS. It's really happening!
-http://bigassmessage.com/
-having a very relaxing day at home.
-Daring Greatly. I was chatting with friend on gchat, and some how we started talking about a guy. She asked if I thought he was cute and well...I didn't say yes, but I also didn't say no. She said she was going to look into it. I would usually stop everything about this from happening. However this time I just kind of played it off. If anything comes about it, great. If nothing comes about it, that's okay too. Trying something new. TRE.
-having the apartment to myself.
-Steph giving away her books that she doesn't want anymore. She had about 8 paper bags filled to the top with books. At the end of it all I took one whole bag of books. Although some of them were mine to begin with.
-Ruth calling me to tell me her friend is moving and is getting rid of her basically new bed for cheap. She got it in February. I'm definitely going to call her and look into it.
-Meeting up with Kasono. Its always so much fun to see him. Such a kind soul.
-Seeing Emily's show. It was really good. Her writing style is great and the actors fit their characters like a glove. Fun to watch!
-being invited out for a drink after the show. Again, handling the social outing pretty well. Catching up with people I don't really see all that often.
-laughter.
-the basics
-melatonin
-as always, my friends
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